Letting Go Of Mr Jones

Hey Stranger…

I know I know, this has been one of the longest writing breaks I think I have ever taken BUT! I have been busy and a lot as been happening. So much so that my dysfunctional brain has no idea how to start writing about it all. Maybe I should start with getting engaged as that’s what I have mentioned in the title after all. Then I’ll address everything else in follow-up posts? yeah, we’ll go with that.

I got engaged, on a balcony in Paris this past April. A real, proper engagement! Not like the first time, a stab in the dark at getting validation that the other person loved me enough to say yes, only to get a reply of “alright”…..no, this was the real deal, bent knee, our song playing and in the very city of Love itself, Paris! To a man that I admire. A man that makes me feel loved whole heartedly. A man I can actually say is the one. I got my validation that I am enough, worthy of a lifetime. I didn’t need the ring to know I was loved, that I already knew! But me, Ryon Jones from little Doncaster, crazy, messy and hard work is enough for a lifetime and that’s a reality I’m still getting to grips with today as I sit, finally writing again in a very busy coffee shop in Cardiff, ring on my finger. Being who I am, I also proposed haha I wanted my man to get his special moment, he deserves it, So a week later when we were back from Pairs I surprised him with his ring in a very romantic affair. That leads me to my next topic, saying goodbye to Mr Jones, It took a while to decide to leave my old name behind but a decision I am very happy with now. See, my dad passed away 6 years ago and I am an only child, there are no other male children on the Jones side of the family so I truly am the last of the Jones’s, one of the main reasons I had for hanging onto Jones but then I sat and thought about it, I haven’t heard from my dads side pretty much since the funeral, my uncle doesn’t seem to like me very much and I have no respect for the behaviour of my Auntie so what have I got to lose? Not a great deal. I have always paved my own way through life, got myself through so much an stood on my own two feet and this decision is one I am making for myself and my own new future. The future where me and my love keep building our home together, sharing in the good and bad and continuing to love each other till our time runs out.

SO…I will leave this post here. lets raise a glass to happiness, especially to my own! If you support in my happiness I thank you wholeheartedly, it means a lot and has been a long time coming, If you don’t then that’s ok too, as long as you are happy within yourself!

Cheers to the future Mr & Mr….

thank you, see you in the next post! x