33 day's I had waited to see his face, I wanted to write about it but I've left it too long and now the memory has gone along with the words and what I had said. I just remember drowning, drowning us both in a flood I was creating myself. I broke the dam and … Continue reading not so cool, calm & collected
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The Things I Miss
I am hoping that if I write them all down then I wont miss them anymore. Purge them out from the corners of my mind so I can start again. .... Being told I look beautiful, even when I've just woken up. Having someone to call beautiful. A hand on my thigh in the car. … Continue reading The Things I Miss
February Reflection
February was filled with so many tribulations, indecisiveness and uncertainty about my future, my direction, my work, my social life and the way I treat myself and how I value myself. I have been introduced and on some occasions reintroduced to what holds me back, to what prevents me form doing things the way I … Continue reading February Reflection
Too Old For This Shit
Cold coffee from a cup off the floor is all I need in this inner war and the drugs didn't work and the sofa was cold check my phone, do some needed damage control fuck, wasn't meant to let all of my feelings show It's my birthday soon I'm getting old the sun is too … Continue reading Too Old For This Shit
If I…
If I wrote you a letter, kissed with my name would you smile, would you rip it up or burn it with flame? Would you cry for a while or would you run far away from the memory of all the perfect memories we made? If I picked up the phone, what would you say? … Continue reading If I…
That’s Their Opinion
What is love? What does love mean to you? Do you crave it? Have you already obtained it? I asked a variety of people what love meant to them and this is what they had to say! VH - Unconditional. AL - Companionship, trust, affection and loyalty. KC - What's love got to do with … Continue reading That’s Their Opinion
The Sickness
My ankle still hurts from early hours Sunday morning, I got so drunk that I threw up again and I was so embarrassed that I fled, left my shirt and my hat, my dignity too. Running so fast that I stumbled in my platform shoes on the stairs, it happened so fast and I was … Continue reading The Sickness
Memories For Company
Today I walked past a house and through the window i could see their Christmas tree, still up, still shining full of lights even in February. I didn't even mind, in a way I completely understood how it felt to hold on to something good for as long as possible, something that brings you joy. … Continue reading Memories For Company
Winter’s Whisper
The ground outside is frozenI can see the air I breatheAnd my chest is still torn openAs my skin begins to freeze The light inside is dyingAs my feet are turning blueI'm forever in this winterAnd I owe it all to you Time has stopped it's tickingAnd the lakes are frozen stillAll the icicles are … Continue reading Winter’s Whisper
Chasing The Sun
You rip out my heart with your slight of hand and try to ram the moon into the space it left in my chest. I gave up on the moon when you gave up on me yet you hold it out in your hand, offering it up as if to give me solace for your … Continue reading Chasing The Sun
Ryon Maverick 