The Things I Miss

I am hoping that if I write them all down then I wont miss them anymore. Purge them out from the corners of my mind so I can start again. .... Being told I look beautiful, even when I've just woken up. Having someone to call beautiful. A hand on my thigh in the car. … Continue reading The Things I Miss →

February Reflection

February was filled with so many tribulations, indecisiveness and uncertainty about my future, my direction, my work, my social life and the way I treat myself and how I value myself. I have been introduced and on some occasions reintroduced to what holds me back, to what prevents me form doing things the way I … Continue reading February Reflection →

Too Old For This Shit

Cold coffee from a cup off the floor is all I need in this inner war and the drugs didn't work and the sofa was cold check my phone, do some needed damage control fuck, wasn't meant to let all of my feelings show It's my birthday soon I'm getting old the sun is too … Continue reading Too Old For This Shit →

If I…

If I wrote you a letter, kissed with my name would you smile, would you rip it up or burn it with flame? Would you cry for a while or would you run far away from the memory of all the perfect memories we made? If I picked up the phone, what would you say? … Continue reading If I… →

The Sickness

My ankle still hurts from early hours Sunday morning, I got so drunk that I threw up again and I was so embarrassed that I fled, left my shirt and my hat, my dignity too. Running so fast that I stumbled in my platform shoes on the stairs, it happened so fast and I was … Continue reading The Sickness →

Memories For Company

Today I walked past a house and through the window i could see their Christmas tree, still up, still shining full of lights even in February. I didn't even mind, in a way I completely understood how it felt to hold on to something good for as long as possible, something that brings you joy. … Continue reading Memories For Company →